Twenty Ten

Two thousand and nine passed me by quicker than any year has. I anticipate time will increasingly slip by as I get older. 2009 was full of new people ( Joshua, Kaidenn and Braylen), new forgiveness, the changing of lifestyle, a couple car wrecks and a new home. I usually do a complete year in review, but not this year. It’s safe to say that 2009 was one of my best years, a year of new beginnings that will last a life time. 2010 can have those same promises.
Twenty-ten is a year to implement change, to experience more exciting memories and a year to leave a lasting positive mark in. I’m not one for major resolutions; I don’t plan on losing a certain amount of Lose Weight Exercise or doing something above and beyond expectations. But I do hope to make changes that better me as a person and that follow in the will of God. I do think I will stop doing certain actions and implement others. But I don’t want all of my decisions to be something I’m chasing through the year or something that ends in two weeks. I realize there is always the possibility of failure, but my hope is to get back up and stick with my life changes.

More spiritually focused and Christ driven life
I’ve finally made it back to churc. For the past 7 months I’ve been attending church with Joshua and although it’s of a different background than what I’ve previously been to, it still has the same intentions, the same positive contributions in my life and I still feel connected (if not more so) with Christ.
On top of maintaining church attendance, I realize that there are more changes I can make and need to make to be more in line with what I feel God has intended for me. For the New Year, I have ideas of small but influential changes that I can do to have a more pure relationship with the Lord and the ones I love. These changes include, but are not limited to

• Scripture Study: Joshua and I started reading through the Bible together. We’re almost through Exodus. While I’ve decided to do this, I’ve not been consistent in doing so. I want to read through but also understand and follow God’s commandments more fully.
• Prayer: While I do pray, I don’t do so diligently enough. I need to spend more time in communion with God, in thanksgiving and in asking for direction. I need to lean less on my own understanding, less on my own will and more on God’s. I need to not seek my will, or what I want, but look deeper about what God has in store.

Vices

I don’t have addictions or too many bad habits, but I know that even some of the things I do can be tweaked a bit for an overall better lifestyle. While I hardly drink alcohol, the few times I have in the past couple of months, I drank a bit too much and reach at the least, a level of tipsiness. I’d like to not reach that point any longer. I’d like a clear, level headed mind at all times. I’d like to remember my nights. I know too, that God doesn’t want me to become drunk, at any level. I’m instituting this change, not because I see alcohol in my life as a problem, but because I don’t see it as a positive.

I’d also like to be more aware of what I allow myself to take in. Whether it is music, television, movies or reading material, I think that what I allow into my brain and heart effects who I become and how I react. It won’t be as if I’m going to stop enjoying the entertainment world, I just want to be more diligent in not allowing in certain material.

A Better Bank and a Better Body

In a way these two things go hand in hand. I spend most of my money on food; going out to eat and or buying groceries and not consuming them before they go bad. I’ve already spoken with a personal banker and he’s helping me to understand what I need to do to save money and to spend it wisely. I will be eating out less and having a budgeted supply of money for “fun” excursions. I will not be buying nearly many clothes and accessories, only if they become a necessity.
Joshua and I have enjoyed cooking and finding new things to try out. I’d like to further those escapades. While I don’t have excess Lose Weight Exercise to loseWeight Exercise, I do have a heart, lungs, muscles and bones that want to be fed the correct nutrients to live a long time. The goal of being healthier is much more important than the goal of looking like a model. I plan on continuing to eat healthy and to Lose Weight Exercise a few times a week.

The Future
While I don’t want to have a future set in stone because I want to be open to the possibility of change, I do want to have an idea of the path I will be taking. My goal this year is to pick an area, a career, some directional point to which I want to end up at. I have ideas but they’re almost vague. With this goal, I plan on having building blocks to stand on. Through a course I’m taking now, I will be getting my resume set up to near perfection, I’ll be looking at different careers and building up an online profile for myself. I may not know where I’m going but I have the knowledge, will and skills to accomplish my goals. I hope to be well organized and ready for anything when the time comes.
Not only do I want my career life to start to take off but I want to continue to shape the bonds and relationships I have. I want to remain connected with the growth of my nieces, nephew and Godchild. I want to maintain the friendships that I hold dear. I know sometimes I lack at being around or being there, but I intend to always make time for those relationships. I also want to continually better my relationship with Joshua. We are striving to grow spiritually and to always choose love.

These changes may take time, may take failing, may take a kick in my behind, but I know I can accomplish all of these and build a better Isha.