Posted by
Isha on
May 26, 2010 |
5 comments 
My aunt, Shannon died today.
Things that I want to do right now:
- Know how to deal with the massive amount of anger I’m carrying around.
- Understand where and why the anger is there.
- Punch things.
- Not deal with anything.
- Drive home and crawl into bed until next week sometime.
- Feel Lose Weight Exerciseless.
- Have Hurley lick me.
- Disappear into a book.
- Go to Italy.
- Go swimming.
- Talk to Gram.
- Be held by my brother.
- Feel normal.
- Feel worth something.
- Feel calm.
- Walk the canal at night because the lights reflect on the water.
- Put my face in chocolate fondue fountain.
- Write poetry.
- Read poetry
- Sleep.
- Feel complete.
- Be held.
- Not fall asleep alone.
- I want to be five so that I can cuddle up next to my brother and feel safe.
- Lay on the blanket in the grass.
- Run.
- Runaway.
- Worry less.
- Be happy more.
- Love better.
- Not feel lonesome.
- So much.
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I’m sorry darlin. Life sucks sometimes. I don’t know why you’ve had to deal with SO much in such a short time span especially, but I’m praying for you. Hugs, S.
ps you ARE worth something. you are invaluable. you are precious. you are beautiful and kind. you are smart and creative. you are a bringer of joy to many people’s lives. you are a daughter of God. you are a good friend, sister, girlfriend and person. you’re a good hugger. you forgive people that don’t deserve it. you make efforts to reconcile with people. you exude love in everything you do. you are wonderful. never forget that.
Thank you, Suzical. <3 Sometimes it's hard to see that, but I hope that others see something in me.
Sorry to hear about your aunt. I’m here if you need anything.
Thanks punkin’