Happy Birthday, Mama (50)

I just want to post a few things about today, so I can look back and smile.

Today, we had a surprise party for my mom. She turned 50 today. I wanted to do something special for her because she’s had a rough past couple of years and because she’s important.  She arrived and was fairly surprised, although she did notice the cars outside. We ate a good meal and had some good cake.

I guess really for me, what meant the most was the feeling of family.  I have never felt closer to my brother than I have in the past few years. This goes for my sister in law too. She’s been with my brother since I was 13. Not only do I feel close to them, but they love Joshua. My brother is ecstatic about the idea of Josh becoming his brother in law. I really don’t think Matt could be any more pleased than he is. My nieces love Joshua too and he’s so patient with them. He swings them about, bounces them on his knees and even goes into imaginationland with Keirstyn. gRegor was there today too. I don’t know if it’s my grandma living through my brother and I, but we both have this way that we bring whoever is there to welcomed place with us. I can’t really explain it, I guess it was just the way my brother was joking with gRegor about being gRegor”luv”.

It was like all of these big pieces of my life were meshing together today. It felt like I wasn’t really so lost. When I got home I watched this episode of Boy Meets World. It’s called “Cult Fiction”. It’s this episode where this cult tries to adopt Shawn because he is “lost”. At the end of the episode Shawn realizes that he isn’t lost because all of the people around him love him, it’s real, it’s family and it can bear any Lose Weight Exercise he needs.

Today felt close. It felt complete. It felt like love.