Those Words Are Not Enough

My friend Bryan died today. I’m in complete shock. He was diagnosed with cancer on his tongue last year. Sylva, our mutual friend texted to let me know he has passed today, less than an hour ago. It’s really strange for me right now, because all of these memories have started coming back over the past five years that he and I have shared. Our love for Batman and “our” song by Relient K–Those Words Are Not Enough. I bought the CD, The Anatomy of Tongue and Cheek for him for his birthday in 2007. While Sylva and I were driving to his house for another birthday we broke into this old drive in movie theater and found all these letters they had used for the signs when it had been open. We stole the letters for “Sylva n Isha n Bryan” and laid it on his sidewalk outside his house. There are so many little things that he and I shared, like whispers no one else could hear.

I was looking around and the last conversation we had was many months ago. I hadn’t been there for him recently. I sent him an email with a poem about cancer my grandma had written but never heard back. I implore all of you to love everyone tonight and to keep in touch with people. Don’t let time and space separate you.

me: Hi
Bryan: hi
me: How are you?
Bryan: i’m good. i just moved back in with my family today
me: Yeah, how are they dealing with it?
Bryan: Alright. Mom has been very active in understanding what is going on. Kaylee’s Kaylee…always giving me hugs and kisses
me: xoxos are sometimes the only thing that can suffice. words don’t always work
Bryan: Yea, not always Hey, I don’t mean to run, but Mickey just got back into town tonight, and I haven’t seen him in about a month. Can we talk later sometime?
me: Yes.
Bryan: Thanks. Love you. Have a good night
me: Love you too, sleep well when you do.
Bryan:

“Feelings inside my head, I don’t know but I’m thinking about you. Understand, cause it’s so hard to tell you, cause you already know.” -RK

I love you, Bry.